I Almost Filed for Bankruptcy. Again.

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This email list has changed a lot over the last few years - just like I have.

Some of you have been here since Costa Rica. Since plant medicine circles and full spiritual immersion. Others joined when I started speaking more openly about my beliefs, my values, and the uncomfortable opinions that don’t always fit neatly inside the wellness world.

What I haven’t shared much about are the harder parts.

This April marks three years since we moved back to Canada. Three years since I left what many people called a “dream life” in Costa Rica and returned to small-town Ontario with a nine-month-old baby (a man, a 3 year old and a dog too) and a résumé that didn’t exactly translate.

You can’t exactly put “worked in plant medicine for a decade” on LinkedIn and expect recruiters to understand.

When we moved home, we burned through savings faster than we expected. Unexpected expenses. Debt that piled up quietly. The reality of rebuilding from scratch while raising babies.

Just a year ago, I was considering filing for personal bankruptcy.

Again.

I don’t love saying that out loud. But it’s true.

I filed once at 29. I know the systems exist for a reason.

I know shame helps no one. But still; it hits your ego.

Here’s what I’ve come to understand:

The true through-line of my life isn’t television. It isn’t plant medicine. It isn’t wellness. It isn’t digital marketing.

It’s this:

I do not compromise my integrity for very long.

When television stopped feeling aligned, I left at the peak of my career.

When Costa Rica; as beautiful as it was; stopped feeling honest for me, I left that too.

Each time people thought I was crazy.

And yet.

Right now? Financially, we’re doing better than we have in years. Better than Costa Rica.

But I’m not chasing a million-dollar home. I’m not trying to prove anything.

I’m happy in our 1,100 square foot renovated military house in a half-abandoned village.

Because somewhere along the way, I stopped using other people’s lives as my measuring stick.

That’s the pivot.

And here’s where this matters for you - especially if you’re an entrepreneur.

It is so easy to start measuring your progress against someone else’s highlight reel.

Their revenue months. Their launches. Their new house. Their rebrand. Their team. Their “overnight” success.

But if you build your business by constantly reacting to what everyone else is doing, you will lose the thread of your own integrity.

Entrepreneurship requires blinders.

It requires keeping your head down long enough to hear your own voice again.

It requires asking:What do I actually want? What feels honest for my nervous system? What version of success can I sustain?

The Power of the Pivot isn’t about impulsively blowing up your life.

It’s about refusing to stay misaligned for too long.

It’s about adjusting before resentment calcifies.It’s about redefining success before burnout defines it for you.

May this be your reminder:

Whatever everyone else is doing does not get to be the barometer for your joy.

Or your business. Or your mission. Or your timeline.

Keep your blinders on.

Build slowly if you need to. Pivot boldly if you must.

But do it because it’s true for you - not because it looks good from the outside.

P.S. I am re-launching my most popular embodiment program... details will be announced soon.

If you want to be in a room full of women who don’t wait for permission, who act as if, who normalize expansion before it makes sense on paper; this is your invitation.

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